1/28/2016(remember these are all back dated journal entries)
Running Total: $17,506*
Its been a long 3 months since our first failed IVF transfer.
Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years passed as if on auto pilot.
Sadly I drank a lot….. and I mean a lot of WINE and ate terribly for most of it as well. Sad and depressed but unable to move forward knowing we still had eggs left. The only silver lining…our baby is on ice!
Jason and I decided to do our next round in Feb and we are already planning on doing a back to back round in case the first frozen transfer (FET) doesn’t work we don’t have to discuss anything the Dr’s and Jason and I just know whats next. Not that we aren’t optimistic anymore…..I just think I’ve been knocked down a few pegs.
This wasn’t going to be so easy after all.
Gearing up for our next FET (frozen embyro transfer) I started doing more and more research as to how we can help these little eggies stick this time. You would not believe HOW MUCH is out there. Keep your feet warm at all times, eat crazy things, drink and eat only warm foods, meditate, the list goes on and on and on…..and ON!
I’ve started to eat healthier, cut out alcohol and cut down on sugars as well as started Chiropractic and Acupuncture. Acupuncture is even recognized by the Dr’s to hugely improve chances and is highly recommended!
Surprisingly I had always thought acupuncture was weird and terrifying because of ALL those needles! But after injecting yourself in the stomach, thigh and buttocks repeatedly with who knows what you really don’t have a fear of needles anymore LOL! Bring on ALL the needles!
The difference between what we did before, called a fresh IVF cycle, and now is they don’t need to harvest the eggs. No injections to stimulate egg growth. This time I’ll take hormone injections to suppress my ovaries so they don’t grow eggs while also taking more meds to grow and thicken my uterin lining.
Talk about shoving my body through crazy hormonal swings. “Grow all the eggs…Now STOP growing eggs!”
I’ll also take meds to suppress my body from ovulating so we can make sure my lining is fully ready. When the time is right they will thaw the eggs and place 1-2 back into my uterus. After that, the process stays the same. Same progesterone shots to tell my body I am pregnant, the same steroids to make sure my body doesn’t try and attack the egg(s), etc.
I went into the RE’s (reproductive endocrinologist..aka the IVF/Fertility Dr.) yesterday for my baseline monitoring ultrasound. I haven’t been back here since our “WTF” appt and even though I should be excited I just feel sad.
I wonder how many times we’ll walk through these doors, how many times other woman have walked through these doors. Is there ever a visit where instead of tears theres joy and relief and happiness?
I still can’t shake the feeling that none of this will work. “If it didn’t work the first time, it’s never going to work” perspective. I know I need to have a positive mind, positive outlook, “think baby”….but I’m finding it’s just SO hard to do.
I leave the office with instructions to start my lupron injections today. I’ll be injecting 10 units per day into my stomach until I hit cycle day 1 and then I get to drop it down to 5 units. Hoping that cycle day 1 is here within the week but with my irregular cycles who knows when Aunt Flow will show her pretty little face!
Until then “everybodyyyyyy…….shots, shots, shots, shot, shot, shot” Hahaha!
- $100.00 Chiropractic (New Patient Appt)
- $40.00 Chiropractic (Adjustment)
- $80.00 Acupuncture (New Patient Appt)
- $474.00 Medications/Injections/Etc
Blog Posts to come per reader request: IVF vs Tubal Reversal, The Cost of IVF
Need to catch up? Here are the IVF related posts in order:
- The Start
- 8.20.2015 First IVF Consult
- 9/9/15 IVF Drugs & Discounts
- 9/15/2015 Meds, Labs, Ultrasounds, Money “OH my”
- 9/17/15 Injection Training!!!
- 9/25/2015 Day 3 is HERE!
- 9/28/15 WTF Lead Follicle Problems
- 10/3/2015 Trigger
- 10/8/2015 Egg Retrieval Day!
- 10/18/15 2WW Woes
- 10/22/15 BETA Day
- 11/20/15 Finding Distractions